I have stopped doing what I enjoy doing.. I hardly work out, my weight piles on and my hormones driving me crazy. I feel so drained. I feel hopeless. I can't even fit in my clothes now. I often just end up reduced in tears. I wish I had a stronger will, a bigger heart and a hardier soul. Yet, I get ridiculed all the times. I become reserved and a almost selfish. I become heartless because I have lost since I started being pushed from all directions. I have a thirst for knowledge but I just don't have the time to even quench that thirst. As dry as a prune and as bitter as a nut (oh fine, nuts are not supposed to be bitter I know) are what I have become.
How can I live another day like this.. Life is bigger than these. My life has been destroyed by the very profession which was supposed to be 'life preserving'.