This season has not been an easy one for me - I think it has a lot to do with suppressed and bottled up feelings. The toughest part of this is that I am unable to articulate this to anyone. Suppressing mixed emotions can be the most lethal thing. The consequences were then seen in the manifestation of my tipsy self last Friday night after just a few glasses of red wine.
I have caught up with two more of Eddie Redmayne movies -
I have seen watched something like four movies by Redmayne - more to come?
It is only the first week of the year yet I have already watched three movies! What a way to kickstart the year!
The first one is Breakfast at Tiffany's a 1961 film starring the famous Audrey Hepburn. I caught it on tv. Curious, initially, I watched it only because it is such a famous movie. I must say - I think it is a rather funny (in a weird way) sort of movie. I had to keep reminding myself that this is a 1960s film.
Next, I decided to catch The Danish Girl. Because it is banned in this country, I resorted to watching it on my ipad in bed. I have to admit - I like Eddie Redmayne and I think he is really cute. Surprisingly enough, my med school buddy Minnie (*not real name) is also a Redmayne fan. This is actually the first time we can agree on a guy's shuai-ness. We never had the same taste when it comes to men so this came as quite a shock. I also don't know I like Redmayne - I just find him really funny and cute. Heh.
Two nights ago, I decided to then turn on to the internet and stream the latest much awaited Sherlock: The Abominable Wife. The BBC series is really smart and often leave me to feel that I am just so slow in terms of mental capabillities. This installment definitely is clearer than the previous ones - yet I still had to read reviews to understand.
This year's Christmas, I spent it with my group of friends whom I have become quite close with thanks to Whatsapp group chat. We are a bunch of anaesthetist-wannabes whose personalities range from ADHD to often melancholic hypersomlonence type. Flawed in many ways yet we strive to stay on together. It is indeed a beautifully unique friendship which I really cherish.
Post Christmas I spent two nights at the Heart Centre being oncall. It was a terrifying yet eventful call which made my heart flop. I thank God I managed to intubate the patient without even visualising the vocal cords.
Really, I digressed.
A few things I have achieved this year -
1. Watched more movies than I ever did other years
2. Started drawing the eye brows in an attempt to change their shape
3. Sat on extreme roller coasters
4. Travelled to 4 different countries
Just a quickie - resolutions for 2016!
1. Workout to strengthen, to tone and to be fit - aside from losing some weight, hopefully
2. Actively studying for an exam
3. Start putting on some make up
4. Sleep less (slightly far fetched)
5. Tend to the garden a bit
6. Convert another 10k to GBP possibly
7. Go for a Turn Thirty Trip
8. Eat more kimchi-based meals
9. Watch more good quality movies
10. Conquer the IJV CVL insertion
Funny how time can fly by so swiftly that by the time you finally decided to start doing something useful, the calendar tells you that it is coming to the end of the year. Time to regroup!
So how have I fared so far?
To be honest, I have yet to accomplished anything major this year.
Weight, Health and Fitness
Weight issue is still lingering around. Eating disorder is getting more apparent as I lose motivation for almost anything. Swimming is currently hampered as I developed an isolated fungal infection patch on my arm. YouTube workout sessions are the only thing I try to do but my latest problem has been the lower back pain. This gnawing back pain has creeped into my life.. even before I turn thirty!
Books versus movies
I am quite ashamed to admit but I have not been very disciplined in the bookworm department this year. Instead, I watch more films - in the movies or streaming online. What has changed? I am not sure myself. I used to love reading so much. Good, quality works such as The Atonement, The Great Gatsby and many more which I used to really enjoy. Guilty as charged - I have Anna Karenina lying at my bedside table for months... untouched.
Maintaining friendships require effort. This means getting in touch with friends from time to time. Having technology like Whatsapp is definitely helpful - but sometimes, I still fail to reply messages because I read them too fast and then forgot completely after that. This year, I have also got to know one or two new people better - forging new friendships. Besides that, I also attended a wedding of my old time 'frenemy' from the mid-1990s. During which, I met another friend whom I have not met in almost 20 years.
Never quite expected myself to be riding them - at least five rather 'extreme' rides from my visits to Disneyland Paris and Universal Studios Singapore. This, perhaps, should be called an accomplishment indeed.
There has been quite a buzz about the 'Back to the future II' day - which is actually today, 21 October 2015. While I scouted around for articles (eg this one from CNN) to enrich my almost non existent knowledge about the movie and its relation to the 'future' ie today, I cannot stop myself from thinking of what I would had envisioned for my future self when I was 9 or 10.
Did I see myself as a doctor?
Yes. But I did not think my life was so hectic I practically stopped enjoying it. I also did not foresee myself loving what I am doing now - anaesthetics. I do not even think I knew what anaesthetics was!
Did I see myself being single and hopelessly unmarried at this age?
No. I saw myself settling down in my mid twenties, leading a pretty normal life. Nothing like what I am today - someone without clear direction and always deprived of sleep. I certainly did not foresee myself having a void when it comes to relationships. I often thought normal people would eventually meet someone in their lives whom they would marry. Sadly to say, things never came true.
Did I see myself living in a nice home?
Surprisingly enough, I always dreamt and hoped to refurbish this old house and 3 years ago, my parents actually got it done pretty neatly. I saw the unused spacious balcony as an extra space. Today, the space has been closed up and extended as part of my room with the addition of a bathroom.