I binged eat today. Like... tons of biscuits! It is quite scary to see the amount of food I binge on. One day I eat only fruits, the other day my entire diet gets ruined. Why do I get hungry so easily? I don't think I am hungry. I just think my mouth is 'itchy' and I need to eat. Binge eating.. eating disorders... not again!!!!
Not only that, I have been feeling so tired recently. What is wrong with me?!?!?
I think I am quite a clumsy person. I have had bruises everywhere because I accidentally hit somewhere or something. In the gym today, I knocked on the rowing machine and a bruise is forming on the tibial surface, lower 2/3 of my left leg.
It is painful, but not as painful as someone who had corneal abrasion because he accidentally jabbed his finger into his eye. I do not want to mention who, but does it not sound like Trish who accidentally poked her own eye with the Strawberry Zip chocolate wafer wrapper almost 2 years ago? Same treatment.. special contact lens, antibiotics...
Painful! With the so many f-word coming out. Next time you say it, I will say "please watch your language...."
Simplicity and flexibility is the way to go when you are single and living alone.
So what did I have for dinner?
I had some leftover instant rissoto. It is about a quarter of a cup. Add some water and put them all in the pot. Add a knob of butter. Add sliced big onions, egg and some sardines. Let it to boil 'til it becomes sort of meshed up texture.
Yums!
That is me. I go for simple, easy-to-make food that is hopefully nutritious and filling at the same time. I do not make elaborate dishes because I am not really particular in it. I just love a good bowl (or plate) of hot food!!
I just watched Paranormal Activity in Richard's room. There were 8 or 9 of us. I was munching the Kitkat dark chocolate and sipping Smirnoff Ice once in a while.
I thought it was real movie.. but fake one lah! As in, it's fiction. Cheh!! Hahaha. I don't deny spirits are real.. but I am really glad that I have Christ in me. Who am I to fear when Christ is in me??
You know something is wrong when you feel hollow and empty deep down inside.
You know something is wrong when you wake up at 10am and don't feel like going to the hospital.
You know something is wrong when you simply sleep too much.
You know what is wrong, you are just denying it!
I knew the day would come where disappointment meets reality. I have been there, done that.
I don't know how many times should I be broken before I can call it quits. I am in denial.. whatever.. I think this is the same thing that happened 7 or 8 years ago. I know it was wrong. I know it wouldn't happen. I know, I know.. yet I could not help but get myself drawn and drown in it.
I know I am asleep.. in a dream. I will only wake up when it turns into a nightmare. I should have woken up before it turns into a nightmare but no, I refuse. Subconsciously. I don't know why. It is so tough. So hard. How many times have I got to cry before the tears dry up on their own?
'Til then....
What happens?
Search me, O God, and know my heart today;
Try me, O Savior, know my thoughts, I pray.
See if there be some wicked way in me;
Cleanse me from every sin and set me free. —Orr
I rang my good friend who is now in Western Australia all settled and working in a hospital. The best piece of good news she delivered to me is the very fact that she is attached. It is her who is attached, but I can't help but feel so, so happy and excited for her!
She is one girl whom I can see so true, so beautiful in and out and very genuine. She told me.. "it is worth waiting."
"Pray and ask God to prepare you..."
I should be more earnest in my prayer. I must truly believe God has someone in store for me. I should stop getting distracted.
I think it is so amazing. I felt so inspired after talking to her. In a positive way, you know.. I know, things may not turn out the way I wanted.. look at my sis.. she is 25 and a godly woman but she is still floating around..
But heart-warming stories still melt my heart.
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